5 ways to do absolutely nothing at work.

 

1. Sit at you desk and stare at all the emails you need to answer but then choose to close the web bowser screen completely cutting all knowledge of those said emails off and then proceed to stare at all the paperwork in your inbox and spend hours nicely organizing them into categories of things you will not do now and things you might do later.
2. Open up your laptop and edit pictures of your kids. Quickly change screens onto something work related when a co worker passes your office and stare at the metrics on your screen like you actually care about them. Then continue to edit pictures when that so called co worker leaves.
3. Ignore all manager calls hoping someone else will answer them but reluctantly get up after the first call because you realize that you’re the main manager on duty. Do anything to accommodate the angry customer even though you know that they are full of shiz half the time. Apologize and loose a piece of your soul as they yell at you because they didn’t get their 2 dollars off on their already 50% clearance item. Apologize again and curse them to death in your mind all while smiling as your giving them their 2 dollars off.
4. Take your lunch and walk slow to the mall food court and walk even slower on your way back. Eat at your desk while your on Facebook. Stay on Facebook when you clock in until you realize that maybe you should actually get something done since you’ve been at work for about 6 hours now.
5. Stare at all the emails you need to answer but then choose to close the web bowser screen again then proceed reorganize your paperwork in your inbox into categories of things you will not do now and things you might do later.
Now I wish that I could say that this has not been an everyday thing lately but I’d be lying. Ever since corporate decided that they will be restructuring my office in May I have lost all ability to actually care about what needs to be done. I just keep thinking how I will soon be a regular associate with very little job responsibility's that its hard to care about the ones I have now. I think I am actually wanting to pill up all my work so that whoever will be in charge of all my job duties will have their hands full. So that maybe my job I did have will be a little more than it does now.
I want to say oh hey you need me to actually walk you through this? oh dang it to bad I have no more access to that. Shoot. Too bad. That sucks and then laugh evilly as they struggle. But, I am better than that. So I have a few days like this where I do nothing and then my guilt kicks in and I bang out my job in 2 days and then start this process all over again. Once May hits and I have to clean out my office I think it will all hit me that this is for real and then I might cry and wish that I didn’t act like I am now. But right now I say SCREW WORK and SCREW you corporate! You Suck!
Thanks for taking my job away and making me settle for something I never wanted. Thank you for making me realize that working is not my everything and that my life will be a ton better with out all the crap you put on me. Thank you for making me actually choose to live outside of these walls. Because the 6 years I put into you meant nothing but the 6 years I will get to put back into my family will mean a ton more. So thank you, thank you for kicking me to the crib so I can pick myself up and live an actual life.

Its so worth it.

I don’t know what happened but somewhere in my mind I decided that I needed a change. Not a “Hey lets get skinny” change but “hey I eat a bunch of crap and I feel gross so I need to fix that” change. It could have been the fact that Wyatt was growing up eating different from how I grew up which was insane I thought. Why, was I letting that happen?  Why was it okay to eat out every night? Or twice a day?

When I was growing up we would have warm homemade dinners set up on our family table every night and then we did what was called “family dinner.” Have you heard of this? We sat at the table with everyone and ate dinner together. No TV, no phones (they didn’t exist anyway Holy… wait what?) and we did this whole conversation thing. Its called talking to each other.One person says something and then someone responses. And then you do that over and over. Do you remember when people actually did that?

Well I thought of that a few weeks ago. I thought how it would be for Wyatt when he grew up. He’d remember us zoned out watching TV while we ate. How lame is that? So I said SCREW IT! Dinner is going to be family DINNERS, at a table, all together, eating, talking, sharing. And I am going to make dinners like my mom did. Warm homemade dinners and so I did.

And then It got me to thinking, If I can cook a meal every night after work then I can get my ass into a gym after I put the kids to bed and so I did.

I did. I have, I still am, and I feel good. GREAT! AMAZING! I am surprised with how much I could do it. How much I could change my thinking just because I wanted it. But my god, its hard. No one tells you how hard it is to not to sit at home and eat a barrel of ice cream or go out to eat and gorge myself because I was use to doing that. And you know what I have last few days done that. I have, but then I feel gross all day and night and I think to myself “Its not worth it.” That ice cream was not worth it, that 3 plate of food was sooo not worth it. Why did I do that?

So then I go back to my veggies, water and one plate of food and kick some ass in the gym. Then I come home crash out on my bed and I count all my sore muscles and think oh man its so worth it. Its gonna be so worth it.

Yard work you suck.

The thing about owning your own home is that you have to do all the yard work which if you have not done yard work in years its hard to get into the curve. We have a ton of trees surrounding our yard. A ton. Trees that shed leaves for months in the fall, trees that you can not keep up with. Seriously, last fall I raked leafs and then an hour later I would have to do it again. So by the time winter came I still had leaves in a pile to be ready to be pick up and put into a bag which then they got covered in a ton of snow.  Now those leafs are my favorite to pick up in the spring. They are all nice and gooey, they smell fantastic and man are they easy to rake.  No really, they’re awful.

The last couple of days I have been trying to pick up those mushy piles of leafs which by the way leave a huge brown dirt pile that you will have to regrow the grass in. It just gets better. Anyway while I was doing that, my boys played outside with Kipper the dog which then I got distracted and took a ton of photos of them and then a sun flare came and that was it, I was done.  I got through 3 piles and still got 3 more to go and that’s not even talking about all the branches that fell from those trees that I still need to clean up.

Man, yard work you suck. Sun flares, you rock.

End of story.

52/1

Cody bought me a new camera with our taxes. It’s a lovely little thing, I adore it. I have been trying to use it more than my cell phone to capture the kids, so I decided that I am going to join in the project a lot of bloggers have been doing where they post 1 photo a week of each kid. Here is my first post.

Week 1:

Gunner: Basking in the light watching as our cat Callie passes him by in the kitchen .

Wyatt: Warming his toes in the spring sun.

Grilled Lime Flank Steak

Main Dish ingredients

• 2 limes for 1/8 cup juices
• 1 TBL soy sauce
• 1 TBL minced fresh ginger
• 1/4 t red pepper flakes
• 3/4 lb flank steak
• 1 large zip top bag

Main Dish instructions

• in a large zip top bag combine lime juice, soy sauce, ginger and red pepper flake
• add steak turning bag to coat
• marinate in refrigerator at least 1 hour turn occasionally
• heat oven to broil remove steak from marinade
• season with salt pepper to taste
• broil turning once until meat is desired doneness
• let rest 10 minutes before slicing thinly

Side dish ingredients

• 2 TBL red wine vinegar
• 2 TBL olive oil
• 1/2 shallot minced
• 2 t capers
• 2 ripe beefsteak tomatoes cut into 8 wedges

(I added spinach to mine because I needed a little something more.)

Side dish instructions

• in a small bowl whisk together vinegar oil stir in shallots and capers
• place tomatoes on serving platter and drizzle with dressing
• season with salt and pepper to taste.

Creamy baked chicken with spinach

Main Dish Ingredients

• 1/4 cup mayo
• 1/4 cup sour cream
• 1/4 t garlic powder
• 1/4 parmesan cheese
• 1/4 cup shredded mozzarella
• 1 cup diced chicken from rotisserie chicken
• 10 oz spinach thawed squeezed dry spinach

Main dish instructions

• Preheat oven 350
• combine mayo sour cream garlic parmesan mozzarella in medium bowl
• in another bowl toss together 1/3 sauce with chicken and spinach spread in casserole
• spread rest of sauce mixture over chicken and spinach
• back for 40 minutes until golden brown

side dish ingredients

• 1 t Dijon mustard
• 2 TBL lemon juice 1/2 t salt 1 t black pepper 1 clove garlic minced
• 3 TBL olive oil
• 1/2 bag of chopped romaine
• 2 TBL grated parmesan

Side dish instructions

• combine mustard lemon juice salt pepper garlic and oil whisk until well combined
• toss with romaine lettuce sprinkle with parmesan and enjoy!

actually cooking

For about a week now I have been actually cooking. Like the real deal everything home made dinners. Now I got into this kick thanks to emeals. I have always struggled with meal planning even more when I started to work full time a few years ago. By the time I get home I’d be to tired to try and figure out what we have in our pantry to throw together and cook. So we’d end up just grabbing something on the go. Wyatt has become so accustom to fast food that he’d would expect a toy with every meal that we’d eat even if it was something we had at home. Sometimes he would even ask to eat something at home over fast food because that is how much we’d have it. I know I know. It was bad. 

Then I found out about emeals. I uploaded the app on my iPhone and tried the free trail and fell in love with how easy they made it for me. Everything was on there. What I needed to get for every meal for the entire week. It was amazing, plus the meals were so quick and easy to make that I started to look forward to them everyday.

I picked the low carb meal plan and I am so happy that I did because the food has been delicious and healthy and all home made.  I also made the choice that with this new eating healthy thing that I was actually going to get fit. I started to use the myfitness app (daily) and actually record all that I eat and Thursday I will be touring a Gym. Yep. I am going in on the fitness craze. I have never really be serious about getting skinny well because its not about self esteem or hating how I look for me because I am fine with how I look. I like my curves and I like who I am (most days) I want this because I need to be… my family needs to be healthy. Fast food everyday for a 5 year old. Not okay.

If you’ve been following along on instagram than you’ve seen what I have been cooking. Check out #audreyshomemademeals for all the meals I have cooked so far. I plan on posting a few here and there that we have really liked on the blog with recipes so that you guys could enjoy some good old cooking too. Also add me on myfitness app (email dailywyatt@gmail.com <--- the old blog name. hashtag lolololololol) YAY! fitness!

                             

                              (this has not been a sponsored post. I just wanted to share with you something I have really enjoyed.)

I love my kids but come on

Today, was my day off from work and if I was kid less I would have slept in and spent it all day in my pjs watching Netflix and eating a shit load of food. But instead it was spent with an early wake up call from my 5 year after I just got my 6 month old back to asleep for the umpteen time. Tired I then get up with him which he then excitedly screams as he gets into our living room because he saw the video game that my husband bought for him setting out by the TV which that lovely happy scream wakes my sleeping baby and all I can think is FUDGE. F F F FffFFfF f f ffffff…. I just got him to sleep. I just got him the F to sleep. I go in pick him up and change another one of his dirty diapers all the while cursing my husband in my mind as he is nice and comfy in our warm bed and I am here again.

Again.

Don’t get me wrong, I love my kids and my husband but sometimes I hate them all. I hate that it is always me me me ME getting up with the baby. I hate that it is always me changing the diapers. I hate that it is me that Wyatt wants when he wakes up. I hate that it is me doing the laundry, the dishes cleaning the toilets, I hate that it is me paying the bills and I hate that it is me always me alone putting the kids to bed.

Last night, the husband got invited to go out to a Jazz basketball game with his buddy and even though it was his day to watch the kids (his day off from work) I some how got stuck again with it all. So of course while he was there and I was home trying to settle a feverish Wyatt a teething Gunner with a dirty house and piles of laundry. I was cursing Cody again.

Then he came home and then kids stayed in their beds and we turned off the TV and we talked like how we did when we were dating. The hour turned into hours and then we went to bed together and right as we laid down Gunner fussed for his night feed and then right after Wyatt stumbled down into our room with a high fever and I was grateful. Grateful that I was married to a man who when we both are completely tired we can double team the kids with out hesitation. Him with the baby, me with the big kid. Parenting is hard and even though all I wanted today and last night was time to myself. (if I was being honest I’d say that pretty much last week I wanted that too.) I could not be more grateful for them and my husband.

But this momma needs a solo vacation asap.

wild soul

Shh  Shh, I say.  As I calmly rock little Gunner to sleep.  I quickly place my head on his soft brown hair and whispered another shh to clam him.  He nozzles his head into my neck and breathes me in deep.  We rock in the quite as his breath sets the rhythm. 

One, breathe.

Two, breathe.

his eyes slowly blink, 

three, breathe.

Sleep.  He sleeps.  I hold on tighter not wanting the cuddles to end. 

I could hold you like this for a million years.  Sleep for you is rare.  You normally sleep with one eye opened, not wanting to miss a moment.  You like to be in the thick of things, your big brown eyes watching your brother with amazement as he dances in front of you to make you laugh or when you'd silently watch as he plays with his cars.

You take the world in, not careful like the way your brother did. You are the wild soul. Days with you are filled with energy bursting that its hard for you to contain. You screech, scream make your voice known. You do this not out of being upset but rather out of joy. When I hear you holler like that I know that everything is right in your world.