You’re 59

My dad, is one of the most amazing people I know. He is wise and full of advice. He is the person I turn too when I am in need of life direction. Not only does he tells it like it is but he speaks it in such a way that makes you feel like even if you go against his advice that he would support you anyway.

He is a great man, a great soul a wonderful father and the most excellent grandfather. He is a man that Wyatt already looks up too and that I tried earnestly to find a husband to match he’s soul. On this day, On his birthday I just want to express how much I love him, how much he means to me and how I am glad that he is in my life. 

Dad, daddy. You are by far one of the greatest men I have ever known. You are a strength not only to hold our family together but holding my family together. With out your wise words and support I know that I would be in a worst place in my life. I love you dearly and am so glad to call you my dad.

Happy Birthday.

Dear blog

 
Dear blog, I am sorry that I‘ve been spending all my time with instagram. I will try harder to build on our relationship.

Dear camera, I am slowing learning to love you again and cant wait to share the work we’ve done together lately.

Dear work, One day we will end our relationship and it will be epic but for now I will see you in a few hours.

Dear new house, I am so in love with you and I cant wait to hang photos on your walls.

Dear HBO-go, thank you for being here when Dish cant. I wouldn't know what to do with out TV.

Dear you, my readers thank you for sticking with me. I hope soon that I will be able to provide you with more.

On my day off

 
And I have so much shiz to do today such as:

1. get off the computer and get breakfast (yes get because we have no food.)
2. go to the postal office and change our address.
3. unpack the kitchen, living room, bathroom, bedrooms
4. move the furniture in the proper places
5. hang pictures
6. bring all the little things left at the apartment
7. clean the crap out of it (seriously my apartment is gross)
8. take Wyatt to the dentist
9. upload all the pictures on my camera
10. edit/blog them
11. blog
12. blog oh I miss you
13. blog
14. hang the shower curtains
15. take a nap because man I am so tired just writing this list.

we are finally home

                                                                         (me age 18)                                                                                                                                                             (Wyatt sleeping in box he was afraid I’d leave him.)

Right now, I am sitting in my new house bed less and surrounded by boxes. Cody’s in his new recliner reading the newspaper, I just got done reading blogs on the newly connected internet connection and Wyatt is asleep in a tepee that we set up in the living room.

 

Its quite, a nice quite. The kind of quite that makes you feel completely comfortable. The quite were all you start to hear are the crickets chirp, the air conditioner blow and the quite turning of the newspaper.

 

I am home. 

 

This place doesn’t feel odd, different or scary like it did when I moved out at 18. It doesn’t feel complex, nervous or anxious like it did after Cody moved in.

 

It just feels like home. A completely comfortable home. Our completely comfortable home.

As I write these words the room darkens, Cody kisses me then quickly nods off on the couch leaving me to bask in the quite this excellent quite the “we are finally home” quite.

Because man, are we finally home.

Today my day starts at 4am

Yeah, Wyatt thinks its pretty funny that my day starts at 4am. Well I don't jerk! I went to bed early last night which I hate because I like my time to do whatever when the kid falls asleep cause that's the only time I ever get with out having someone saying mom mom mom mooooooooooooooooom at me every two seconds. Its bliss.

Then I got to wake up bright and early this morning (yay!) so I can head to work to do inventory. Which if you’ve ever done retail inventory yeah, it sucks balls. (that's my new favorite saying lately eeek sorry.) Then I get to leave early (like 10ish) from work so I can head to my sisters wedding (which btw who gets married on a Wednesday.) Which I am excited about because its not in a church gym like most Utah weddings so it should be a good one. So be prepared to see a lot of instagram photos of it. 

It will be a long day I doubt I'll get a nap and then guess what I get to do tomorrow!?

Work plus Pack/move again!!

YAY!! (that  sucks balls too. ugh.)

Happy first day of August everyone!

(Yes, I am still packing/moving and yes we have not slept in the new house yet. We currently are waiting for our closets to be done, to have bath curtains and our TV to be set up. We can not live with out those things. Seriously, those words have come out of our mouths. Plus if I move in I have to unpack the kitchen which means I’d have to cook which leads to doing dishes so I'm milking it for as long as I can. wouldn't you?)

to be alive.

“Try to learn to breathe deeply, really to taste food when you eat, and when you sleep really sleep. Try as much as possible to be wholly alive with all your might, and when you laugh, laugh like hell. And when you get angry, get good and angry. Try to be alive. You will be dead soon enough.”-William Saroyan

Dear

(Wyatt enjoying the fireworks at uncle Johnny's)

 

Dear Sister,
I’m  excited for your wedding on Wednesday and super jealous of the family your gaining. They are amazing.

Dear Blog,
I don't know what I want to do with you. I think of all the posts I want to write and what direction I want this blog to go in and then it just doesn't happen which just makes me sad.

Dear Netflix,
I can’t get enough of you lately. I wish I could spend every night with you.

Dear Vacation photos,
Can you just edit yourself and then when your done doing that, blog about it?

Dear New house,
I miss you and cant wait to cook in your kitchen. I dream about it every night.

Dear Apartment,
Cant you just let us go already. Start packing while I am at work so then we can move out quicker. Ugh.

Dear Summer,
Please don't leave us just yet. I have yet to fully enjoy you. We haven't been in the pool much and I have a ton of popsicles in the freezer to eat. I only ask that cool down just a bit.